To know that you have those people there to support you and love you. Those, are called- Friends. Though I've made great friends in the past, it never seem to have lasted. And I come to college and it's great. But, one common thread I find in myself to others is that, I always feel left behind. I know they like me and really do enjoy my company, but, it was originally them first. And, though it's not called intruding but I feel like I'm just always second. Sigh, I don't even think it's anybody but me. I don't like myself.

I feel like a hypocrite. I just lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore.

I feel unclean. And impure. My self concept is completely skewed. I don't know anymore.